MY MOM PASSED AWAY

My mom left us last week and I am finding it so hard to believe. She was in the hospital because she needed her leg to be amputated, she was diabetic. My mom was there for about three weeks and the day she had her second operation on her leg she passed away... so to me it feels like she is still coming home that she is still in the hospital. My dad feels so lost he has lost his soul mate they were together for 36 years! I lost my heroin and my inspiration to be better. I know she is looking down now shaking her head thinking that I haven't lost her. I wish there was some way I could just hear her again, just to speak with her like I did when she was here. I keep closing my eyes thinking of her. 

My family well my immediate family and I were like a clique we always did everything together we always stayed close and I felt free to speak about what I wanted with them. My mom and dad have been supportive of me ever since I was little every choice I made they were behind me even if they disagreed with me...they would try to make me see their point of view. 

Now she has gone and its been a week to the day...and my eyes well up and my heart almost stops ...we miss her so much. She was the rose that the thorns tried to protect and now she has not here to protect... there is an emptiness in me and I'm feeling as if things that bothered me don't bother me any more they seem so insignificant now..Is this Normal?? or is this me changing to adapt to tragedy?