Identity Crisis
I recently have been looking on-line at porn...and I have to say gay porn is off putting I enjoy watching more of the solo acts then actual couple shots of men.....and watching heterosexual couples are more a turn on then homosexual... I don't get it I mean I wasn't a hermaphrodite I know that but why do I have a penis....why do I have feelings for men rather then women. Often when I am alone and I am turned on I imagine I have a vagina and that I am teasing myself. Am I suffering from an identity crisis or what is this was I supposed to be a women... I'm so confused and talking to God has been tough for me cause well I have done so much against his will that Its impossible to stop it and still be in His presence. I was brought up right to respect and love God I have felt him and spoken to him many times but its just become so hard to return to him ...and even when I was with Him back then I would still revert back.....